it is 7:34 pm and i'm at work. kind of silly how i'm still here. 3 minutes ago i was actually working. now i'm pooting around on the internet because that is vastly superior to working. and because i'm leaving soon to go see some band play. when i say "some band" what i really mean is this band that has a cute bassist.

i feel slightly awkward going, as i have no relationship at all with this girl. most people would say acquaintance, and i agree with that on some level. but there is this weird air about us. something strange floating in between the two of us. i know what it is on my side, i just don't know what it is on hers. i'd say maybe she's reciprocating the crush i have on her. but i've given her blatant opportunity to actually reciprocate, and she has not. so, maybe i can chalk it all up to her being weird. or maybe not.

i was expecting to see the ex (who i shall now refer to as the xgf, i like that, it's an ugly looking...acronym?) last night. she wasn't at the open gym. i was relieved and slightly saddened- but only because i was hoping to catch her by surprise again and throw her off her game. you know, like jumping out from behind a curtain, except it would be much less exciting- just me sauntering into a gym full of gay men (and a few ladies) a little late. how...unnerving, eh?

i'm in a better mood today than i was the rest of the week. maybe it was yesterday- i finished my climbing class and i'm not a certified climber...without a wall to climb on. oh well. maybe i'm in a better mood because of tonight, going out and all. or maybe i'm just in a better mood because it is finally friday. almost.

either which way, i'm just happy to not be holed up in my apartment, in my room, in my bed, half asleep and checking my email.