1. i was in the grocery store about 20 minutes ago and found myself in the frozen vegetable section. would you believe that the frozen vegetable section made me a bit sad about the xgf? it was a strange sort of sadness that washed over me. she used to buy the green giant cheesy peas and rice and take it for lunch. i always wanted her to eat better lunches. i always wanted her to eat better in general. she rarely listened, and i'd make her whatever she wanted, otherwise she wouldn't eat. that's the kind of selfishness and immaturity that ran through the relationship. and yet i stood there in front of those vegetables, not only contemplating whether or not i wanted green beans with dinner, but how it was so easy to lose my best friend. poof. gone.

2. as i left the grocery store, i thought about part of a conversation i had with seattle. about the good things that came out of the breakup. namely 3 fabulous friendships. all 3 had foundations and starts earlier in our lives, but they essentially became solidified because the breakup caused me to lean in different directions, onto different people. they are not my best friends, not the way she was, but they have filled my life with love and laughter and the most you could ask from the people who care enough. i am very thankful for that.

3. we (seattle and i) are communicating on a daily basis these days. usually more than once. multiple emails, brief chats. it feels good for someone to want to know about you. if even in the most platonic of ways.