maybe for the first time in over a year i slept next to someone. close. it felt good*.

maybe there is a status update: from crush to....date?

like i said we are both still really shy. this is her first time with a girl. even kissing i guess. i told her that i'm just like a boy, only slightly different. cooler, you know. and so she doesn't or shouldn't have anything to worry about.

the nice thing about this, i'm not looking forward. i'm trying to take it all as it is, as it comes. i like hanging out with her. i like laying next to her, and i like hearing her silly stories. i'm calling a spade a spade. or something like that.

*Yes it felt good. funny thing was that i had a dream about the xgf. that we were dating again, kind of. and she finally had all of her finances in order. she also had a tiny annoying yippy dog. i got really fed up with her and decided to break up with her.