she says things to me that i don't expect to hear. i guess i'm not used to feeling wanted/needed/desired. compound that with the fact that the bitter taste of being with someone that the xgf left with me, and all of her selfish behaviors that i became used to, i'm surprised by everything that is going on now.

i am surprised when she tells me that she misses me. she was gone this past weekend and yes, i did miss her. on the train, at the wedding, waking up with her, i missed her.

i attempted to surprise her at the airport on her way back from her vacay. i somehow missed her (oops, my bad, wrong terminal). when she found out that i had made the trek to the airport (by way of public transport, it took me 1.5 hours) she got off the train (a few stops away) and waited for me. that made my day, not only because i was sad that i had missed her and royally messed up my surprise, but because i couldn't help thinking that if that had happened with the xgf, she would have simply said "see you at home." bitch. :0

it is hard to look in the mirror and see the same things she does. i guess everyone feels that way though.